I have spent the last several days completely freaking out. Really! What the fuck? I am only now emerging. I mean, was that really necessary? The doubt was closing in, I emailed Simon, Simon didn't respond...for 2 days. That, my friends, was the trigger.
The truth is it is hard to know if this was a momentary lapse in sanity or if I am picking up on something. I guess only time will tell. It just sucks to be that girl that never puts herself out there and suddenly, I'm out there. The seatbelt doesn't work, the building is structurally unsound.