A lot has happened since I spoke to you last, dear blog.
Normally if I post anything at all, or even think about it, I just sift through old material and see if anything resonates.
But things have changed in many ways and so nothing feels quite right.
I was doing well for a while there.
Eating well, exercising, being social.
I met someone and went away on a trip.
But by the time I came home I had lost my momentum
And now I feel like I've gained some omentum (thank you Dr. Oz).
This guy I met made me feel small and pretty.
We talked about movies and books. We laughed at the same things.
There was this unseasonably hot November afternoon and we had lunch on a terrace. I remember he played me a voicemail he got from a client and I laughed until I cried.
There was a point in NYC where I got this feeling I had told too many people about how great it was going. It was like I couldn't help myself and I knew deep down it was doomed, and it was.
After that I was dying to tell him that my first impression was that he was gay, and that his brother was by far better looking than he was.