thirty-one

I was the first to get to the class and as I started setting up my bike the instructor walked by and stopped in front of me. I looked up.
“Is it just the two of us tonight?”, he asked with a sly grin.
I held his gaze evenly and smiled back.
“Looks like it.”

Just when I think I don’t have it in me
I pushed through this albeit gentle winter
Without the obligatory hibernation/depression
I am physically stronger than I've ever been
Haven’t smoked a cigarette in over a year
Fly around the world with ease
And I’ve never felt so ready
I’ve been lonely to be sure
And wanted desperately to fill that space
Never convinced I could hold the other half intact
Hoping maybe they would be just a little more
Offering just a few more of the answers
But something new has come to pass
In that turnstile sort of way
I’m not sure what to make of it
Except that I feel ready and sexy
And for the moment
Like everything is going to be ok